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ick ick icccck.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Sep 2002 21:08:49 GMT

*shakes head* ickkk.

mandi and i's conversation.. her s/n shall remain unknown *nods and smiles*
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Mandiii: what is up with sarah
Mandiii: she acts so different
xxplasticxstars: how so?
xxplasticxstars: all she talks about is drew
xxplasticxstars: that's all i can say.
Mandiii: i mean like she is umsessed with boys
Mandiii: o and i thinkl drew likes you and kim
xxplasticxstars: LOL
xxplasticxstars: eew
Mandiii: seriously
xxplasticxstars: how so?
Mandiii: i mean like you like
Mandiii: yoou
Mandiii: not just friend
Mandiii: he wants to be like you and kim to
xxplasticxstars: did he like tell yew that? lmao
Mandiii: no i ask if he like kim and he said he dont know but that means yes
xxplasticxstars: i asked him if he liked sarah and he said that same
Mandiii: and kim said that she thought he like you
xxplasticxstars: ick.
Mandiii: lol
xxplasticxstars: but i don't like him.. and kim doesn't like him?
xxplasticxstars: or does she?
xxplasticxstars: the mysteries in life.. oh my oh my
Mandiii: no she dosnt i ask
xxplasticxstars: ahhh
xxplasticxstars: ok
Mandiii: she hates him
xxplasticxstars: lmao
xxplasticxstars: i knew that
xxplasticxstars: -bangs head on desk-
xxplasticxstars: but sometimes.. in twisted ways.. hate means love
Mandiii: lol
xxplasticxstars: i think drew and sarah should go out
xxplasticxstars: then sarah might shut up about him
Mandiii: yeah me to
xxplasticxstars: and i don't think drew should go "gothic"
xxplasticxstars: ick. i hate labeling people now.
Mandiii: me either it is not him at all
xxplasticxstars: i knooow
xxplasticxstars: he has this image
Mandiii: i know we ned to stop that
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eee. drew is ugly *shrieks* and sarah likes him so i can't betray one of my best friends and go out with a guy i detest.
ahhhh.

oo lala.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Sep 2002 20:21:21 GMT

in school 2 no maybe 1 or 3 people think i'm related to manson. *screams* hoooow coool.
i also learned that my athletic's thing is lacking. When we were playing baseball in gym today, i struck out.. lmao.
libby the lesbian is soooo scary... once again she kept grabbing my arm... and she even put her hand on mine when i was on the computer, when she did so i pulled away imediately because she is ugly and like i said.. i'm not that way.
in scienceeee today trisha whatever... called michelle something "gothic" and michelle doesn't look even close to this so called label.
hrm. what else shall i say. i don't understand math. since i'm in the 'advanced' math class, no one can help me... because no one in my math class likes me. so blaaah.
last night my brother was trying to look up mario.. the little video game guy.. pictures to print out and color.. lmao.. well he typed in "marioandfriends.com" and it took him to a porn site.. roflmao. and i came on and saw words like "supersized dicks, hardcore sex on cam, naked men" etc etc.. lmao.. and i was like "whoaaa zach.. didn't know yew were a porno freak." and then he looked at me and said "i was trying to look up mario pictures." i know that's stupid.. but i found it amusing.
why do people believe the stupid rumor that char is 30? i believe he is not... *cough* dumbasses *cough*
welllll uh... i have nothing else to say.
ta-leah

woo?

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Sep 2002 19:53:33 GMT

ok i'm done feeling sorry for myself.. aha. anywaaays. school again today. >:|
drew still thinks kim worships trees... ahahahaaaa. because normally he would talk to us.. but i think we have officially freaked him out... so i suppose our job is done. lol.
ahhhh.
--katie's blog:
...School starts tomorrow, so i probably won't update for a bit. Well, that's all for now, except leah was kind of upset and i think it was at me, i wish i could say i'm sorry but she isn't on. -Toodles.
*screams* no0o0o. i wasn't mad at katie... :\ well not really... i was mad at the world. aha. *feels bad*
ahhhh. school today was ok.. science was mmm.. and err. and history was just kind of boring. hrm.. then math, all i did was write the lyrics to the beautiful people all over my folder. it looks so.. pretty. then um in french we took a reading test to see how far our brains have come along all these years. raha.
ummmm. then we had language arts, where we went to the library instead, which was really nice because it has air condition in it... for if it didn't the computers would probably melt. *dies at the thought of that*
anywaays. then we had uh um GYM *dies again* gym is the my number 1 hated subject *raises 2 fingers* we have to go outside and play sports.. ew sports. IT'S CO-ED TOO.. dun dun dun. but today kimothy and I talked the whole time and didn't bat. so raha.
then i had life skills/home ec... with libby the lesbian.. and she kept touching my arm, and laughing at the dumbest stuff i said. and she kept "flirting" with me.. or trying to. I feel kind of violated when she is near me. ee. i mean i don't have a problem with people like that. *looks around innocently* it's just i don't like being in those moments everyday. ee.
DREW IS GAY. ;OOOO
the things yew never knew... *sighs*
yesterday my grandpa came up from florida as i believe i said already. i went to my aunt charolette's house, where they have roadrunner *bounces*, and the 'speshul' tv channels.. because her husband is a cable guy.
i don't know why i am stating this but ah well:
this is how i describe my aunt's house;; rich people consisting of a large house with a short, nice mother[my auntie], an abusive father[my uncle, cable guy], a child on rediline(spelling?)[my cousin, Kris], and a smaller child which reminds me of a furby.[kyle]LOL.
anywaaays... their internet was not working so i would of died without the tv. so i watched mtv2 and muchmusic the whole time.
sarah's computer is broken.. rahhaaaa.
welll i have nothing else to say now so i shall depart.

ta-leah

wavy fingers, and twinkle toes.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Sep 2002 18:40:51 GMT

When i read other people's journal, i suddenly realize my life isn't as sucky as i presume it to be. I suppose i'm rather lucky and crap; but at times my life is just as bad as the next persons.
today mummy hitler said i needed to get a life for the computer won't last forever. Next month, i probably won't have the net, so i must find as many free aol cds as possible. yes, i am addicted to the internet. raha.
people are ignoring me today. >:|
i don't care, i just hate it.
it's like "since my other friends are here, i can't associate with trash like yew" which really ticks me off. i'm not going to say the names of the people whom are doing that to me, but all i can say is it hurts.
once again, my life doesn't seem nearly as bad as other people's. *sigh*
i still don't see why i'm not a happy person. i have friends i guess yew could say.
i hate people, raha.
ok ok... i have noticed i do talk more to myself than anyone else... no one else seems to care or listen.
dude. i'm crying over my freakin thoughts. how stupid is that?
if my dad comes in and sees me crying at the computer he would surely kick me off. ee.
no one has seen to notice my away message out of the what, 6 people i was talking to, nor do they care?
i'm waiting for someone to get on... but i doubt they will.
ok well i'm gonna go do something constructive.

please keep in mind:
i hate yew all.

rahahaha. i rock.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Sep 2002 15:51:17 GMT

i have decided... therefore in my mind i am god?
lmao.. in other terms.. me, katie, and kim are writing our own bible. lmao.
very lame. yet it shall be true. i'll post some of it in here sometime. YEW SHALL FOLLOW IT BITCH.
-smiles-
yesterday hanging with the drunk people rocked.. weee.
becauseeee they played the beautiful people while they shot off fireworks.
i was like HELL YEAH.. lmfao.
actually i couldn't say that because my mummy was next to me.
i feel speshul.
and not worthless for once.. i am amazed. dude. wow. whoa. ahahahaa.
or perhaps i am a tad high. for earlier... when christina was dicussing the matter of snuffin pixy stix.. i snuffed this sour crap me and kim stole from marshes... I AM STILL FEELING THE BURN, BEBE. anywaaays.
i watched tv.. wow.. because mtv was just like mtv2 today and blah blah blaaaah.
today my grandpa is coming from florida.. hopefully he shall bring money for his BEST grandchild. *smiles*
someone.. something remind me... ask melissa for a tie. *writes on note and sticks to head*
no one is normal.
i am just gonna spill out whatever comes to my head..a ahahahaa.
I WANT THESE PANTS FROM HOT TOPIC.. AHAHA. omgoshhhh.
dude. someone just added themself to my friend list but i don't know who. *pulls hair and dies*
ok... now that we have that out of the way... i am gonna end this useless entry and read other people's useless thoughts.
i shall keep yew posted about my bible. *salutes*

tataaaaa-leah

dead leaves and a dirty ground.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Sep 2002 18:29:41 GMT

rahahahaa... godly services this morning. *cough* chuuurch.. ick ick ick.
i spent the whole time drawing on a piece of paper.. ahahahaa.
o0o mummy hitler said that i can get a new webcam cause this guy at her work place said that yew can get them for 30$'s at this computer nerd store place.
COMPUTER NERDS ROCK...lmao.
uhhh and then yesterday i walked around the 'hood with kim and my mother got all worried at yelled at me and it was funny.
aha. i am evil. -nods-
and alsooo i wrote Twiggy Forever, and on my hand i wrote ginger fish. rawrawr.
today i get to go to cincinatti and hang out with drunk people and watch fireworks. LMAO.
sounds amusing, huh?
i can hardly wait.
today i told drew if he wanted to be a so called "goth" he would have to worship trees. he believed me O.O
lmao -amuses self-
hrm.
well melissa said she bought me a tie. rofl.
wooooooooo.
just what i always wanted. a tie. -bounces-
well i guess that's all.
tataaaa
-leah

ahahaha.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Fri, 30 Aug 2002 20:00:06 GMT

the last entry.. before this one.. was just a few moments before this one.. megan has left now so i shall type the poem christina sent me.. damn it's good.. lmao :D

;;hello my pea
my wall is getting harder
i do believe i'm going insane
but that's okay
cuz elvis went insane
and brick walls are easy to climb
as long as i keep my boots on
then i can kick it all away
i'm going to be okay

good day my pea
my brain is getting softer
i have a fear i lost my touch
but it'll all be okay
cuz marilyn lost her touch
and brains are easy to freeze
as long as i don't chew my nails
then i can peel it all away
i'm going to be okay

bye bye my pea
my time is getting shorter
i do admit i'm freaking out
but everything's okay
cuz queens freaked out
but time is hard to make
as long as i keep my head on
then i can think you all away
will i ever be okay?;

weee... wasn't it great? ok.. that is all for now.. rahaha.

mhm.. yeah.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Aug 2002 22:12:38 GMT

school.. that is all i can say.. school.
dude i am so0o0o freaking tired. i wake up at 6 something... blaaah. then i just sorta walk around my house in a daze until i finally wakeup.. in a way.
ahhh.. my locker is sooo seductive... i have a looot of twiggy and ginger pics.. and a few mana... and pogo... and john.. and and.. i need jonathan davis in there too.. then my locker will truly be yummy. :D
i let kim borrow my 'bible' ahahaha... she is sooo afraid people are gonna turn us in for 'satanic' books... but ohhh well... if she gets caught.. she's dead.. afterall.. i won't be the one with the book. XD
i am afeared that sarah wal-ace may be belimic.. or however yew spell it. that one disease thing where yew puke up your food. she's like --- that big and i'm ---------- big. blaah.. she has assured me she's not belimic.. but i don't know.
omg.. people at my school think i talk to myself. LMAO. the truth is i am actually trying to talk to them, but, alas, people ignore me. and people have been calling me 'gothic'
what's with all the labels.. err.
i don't think i'm "gothic" i think i'm unique.. and that's all that matters.
all week we have been taking test and stuff. boring, yet easy. I am learning some french stuff so it's all good, y0.
kimothy b-round got 'smokes' from melissa after school... smoking is ok.. i mean i've done it before.. i just don't enjoy it as much as snuffinf stuff.. ahahaha.
in other words.. i'd rather snuff than puff it. ahaahaha again.
i also told her she is gonna get wrinkes... lmao.
i am stupid.. yes i know. but smoking isn't exactly fun. but if are snorting something.. then yeehaaaw and yippie.
lmao.
-amused- what else is there to say.. hrm. megan might let me have her webcam... weeeeeeee.
i know everyone wants to see my sexiness.. roflmfao.. if only i was sexy -falls off chair laughing at self- ok not funny.
yet it amuses me, so stuff it.
drew is weird. -winks- he looks all.. uhh preppy-ish to say the least in school. -covers mouth- but on the net.. he is all like "yeah manson rocks, and i am hard core" lmfao.
OHHH. and he thinks i'm related to marilyn manson... ahahah.
katieeeee got her boots so be happy for my lovely.. lmfaoo. only she is now only allowed on 2 hours a day >:| buuut she doesn't obey it.. rahahahahaaaaa.
pringles are evil.. i swear the pringle man is stalking me.. for i found a talking pringle beanie babie under my bed.. dun dun duuuun.
mr. kennedy[my language arts teacher] SCARES ME.. he swears all the time.. -gasp- and he gives sexual looks.. lmao.. and does this freaky thing with his tongue.. and he is soooooo old.. kim says he probably has porno magazines and jack offs in the bathrooms.. lmao.. i don't even want to think about that... ahahaha.
my mother wouldn't let me go to the mall with kim and melissa yesterday.. i don't think she trust me.. errr? what's not to trust about me? -does innocent face- i'm not sure if i even have an innocent face. lmao.
on palaceeee... i dislike a lot of people that have become my friend just because some other people were... i'm not saying any names.. but to the people that know who they are.. do not tell them this following message, ok? ok. ok!! mmmhm: leah thinks they should all stop trying to fit in and got fuck a tree or do something resourceful. -nods-
i congraduate myself on how well i put that into the words. lol.
i have reason to believe that libby perry is a lesbian.. because she always "flirts" with me.. LMAO... and other girls.. only she is ugly.. and i'm not that way... or am i? o0o lmao.
the john and kenny story is getting hot.. ai yi yi yiii. lmao. or whatever.. or something.
someday i'll post the link to the story.. but it's not really good for children with small minds that are fragile and under the age of 47. lmao. -shrugs- but if yew really must read it then be my guest.. weee?
well no one on aim is really caring to talk to right now.. shocking? well sara kind of it.. but our conversation has grown, uh how shall i put it? dim? ;Xx because she doesn't type baaaack. -whines-
i want to get a new dj name.. but i'm too laaazy.. aahaha. kim wouldn't let me talk to some guy named luke -shrugs-
she claims he is hot? ahahaaaaaa? and knows adrifuck.. or something.. ohhhh well.
hrm. well what else can be said? a lot i suppose.. hrm.
ohhh ktb.. isn't going to our school this year >:|
hrmm.. ohhh my brothers birthday was sunday happy belated birthday zach-a-riah! i stepped on a bee at the park and now my foots all itchy..
meg and i have unusual conversations:

chatachrestic: kenny. is. the. hottest. mother. fucker. on. this. mother. fucking. planet. yes. he. is.
xxplasticxstars: LOL
xxplasticxstars: kenny.. in the story? kenny/gingerfish.. or kenny some guy i don't know?
chatachrestic: YES GINGERFISH
xxplasticxstars: OHHH
xxplasticxstars: he is my future husband :DD
chatachrestic: YES I KNOW
chatachrestic: O.O GRRRR HES FINE
xxplasticxstars: lmfaoo
xxplasticxstars: yes i know XD
xxplasticxstars: rawr
xxplasticxstars: someday.. he shall be mine
xxplasticxstars: raha
chatachrestic: lolol

---notice how i talk on and on.. and she doesn't reply? lmao.
ohhh and my sister came home this weekend.. i can't remeber if i told yew that already -thinks- ohhh well. i am reminding myself if i said that all ready. we didn't really talk much. hrm.
lmaoo.. i talked to candice today on aim.. she is like "omggg, you sooo have to tryout for soccer next year." and i'm like "riiight, i will." i'm fat.. and not very athletic.. lmao.
well.. i believe i have said pretty much all that has been on my mind for awhile.. i'm sure there is more.. but i can not process anymore for now.
ta.
<3-sister leah CoS[ihk]
john and kenny.. FOREVERRRRR. :DDD

--last note:
chatachrestic: grrrr hes hot.
chatachrestic: lmfao
xxplasticxstars: lmaoo
xxplasticxstars: ohhh yes... he is yummy.. -nods-
chatachrestic: lmfao
chatachrestic: does he have a webpage?
chatachrestic: o.o
xxplasticxstars: he has 5635345845 i believe
xxplasticxstars: just look for them.
chatachrestic: DUDE
chatachrestic: weeeee
chatachrestic: -claps-
chatachrestic: wat do i search fer?
xxplasticxstars: type in ginger fish
chatachrestic: mkfai'
xxplasticxstars: i am still trying to find a naked pic of him
chatachrestic: mkai*
xxplasticxstars: lmaoo
chatachrestic: ROFL
xxplasticxstars: i wanna see him nakeddd lmao

lmfao.. -amused again-

and the rest of the conversation.. is too 'confidential' for yer eyes.. ee.

AHHHHH.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Thu, 25 Jul 2002 16:50:49 GMT

i have poision ivyyyyyy >.<
stupid god squad camp
gfjkbadeghao;sg

diversexthoughts

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Jul 2002 22:40:18 GMT

lmao... subject.. do not ask...
guess what?! tomorrow is international ignore leah today!!
weeeeee. i self proclaimed that day myself.
-stares at palace screen- doggz is pimpin.. 2 guys are talking, jen and cass are.. dead. 2 people are uh.. yeah.. and i'm just there.
zebadiah's old amish cooking is the dang best restaraunt yew will ever eat at o.-
<33333 ginger fish <33333
people are stupid.
stupid nothing. stupid stupid stupid.
behold the power if pms.. watch out. rawr?
cass' journal i entertaining.
i am bored.
.,.,.,.,.>cinnamon spider<.,.,.,.,.
-dies-
umm.. that's all for now.. lol.

YAY.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Jul 2002 17:10:38 GMT

i have arrived back from the god squad society meetings... or as the church folks like to call it "Youth Church Camp"
i would like to refer to it though as a walk through hell with godly people following yew. i wasn't suppose to bring my cds... but i can not and would of not survived without my cds. also i brought my "holy bible" errrr... manson's autobiography... oh. by the way. I got that book. ahahah. anyways the first day i can't remeber too well but was not fun and i got atleast 5 bug bite things.then monday.. i think it was that day... me and kim played count the roadkill on the road... we saw 25 different dead animals.
one was this raccoon with hardly any tail left and fresh blood ;Xx my mother wouldn't let us stop and take a picture though... pfft. anywaysss then that day i finished my book and started re-reading it. uhhh... then tuesday we did stuff and i am too tired to type the rest.

no one on aim i actually have enjoy conversations with is on aim right at this moment.
in the woods at that place... we found bones that looked human... it was weird.
church camp was s0o0o0o0ooooooooo gay.
welll also i got katie's letter -diesss-
LOL... it's soooo pretty... i lufffff it.
-dies again- john and kenny.. ahahah.
welllllll i am gonna go write katie... tata.

-screams- nooooooooo.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Sun, 21 Jul 2002 18:13:30 GMT

let's see a lot of stuff happened... but the thing i wanna talk about is the voices... i hear.. o.-
last nite... i heard circus/merry-go-round music and some guy talking.. my dad and brother were in the family room... the room farrrr away from my room... and my aunt was asleep with the tv off... i had my tv muted.
it was all scary because it was sooo faint... and i couldn't make it out.. welll my mom's here.. sooo i better go finish packing for the god sqaud society...

-dies-

wooooooooooooooooooooo.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 17 Jul 2002 17:54:29 GMT

uh? yesterday i babysat elmo.. and watched korn's diary again and watched weezer's concert and downloaded a lot of music videos on kazaa.. weeeee?
then my mom and my aunt and me and zach and kris went to the mall to get zach's glasses fixed... and then i ran to the book store to see if they had manson's auto-biograhpy... because kaytee has been telling me some stuff from it and it sounds good.. but, alas, they were out.. sooo i raaan to the music store.. well more like skipped but oh well? and then i looked for deadsy.. and they had it on sale for 6.99 and welll i just had to get it... i got my joj and deadsy cds messed up pretty bad.. don't ask how.. anywaysss then i looked for JoJ... which hard as hellll to find.. and since i had already gotten it once i doubt i would find it again.. but i found the last copy... mwaha... so i bought them and then went and met my family at the dollar store and then my mother made me go in the bible store and made me get these one books that i read in the 5th and 6th grade lmao. then we left... then i called kim and we met and gave each other the crappy bracelets we got each other on vacation and then we went to soccer practice.. where all we did was talk and practice our "munky excercise" [don't ask but if yew see us.. yew will understand] and then we made my mom and kim's mom take us to mcdonalds.. and yew know what's really fun? waving at people yew don't know in the car. hehehe. uhh then i went home and got on the net and kaytee and me talked about what we were going to name our kids... mine are going to be satan reznor, elmo, and chadwick for my boys and peekaboo and rainbow brite for my daughters.. lmao.. i always say i want elmo to get beat up. mwaha... then uhh i woke up and got on the net.. wooo?

ahahahahah

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 16 Jul 2002 15:14:30 GMT

bored bored bored... nothing something, huh? anywaaays. earlier i was looking at ginger pics -dies- sooo hott. =O i used hott! -dies again- as i was saying i was looking at ginger pics and my dad comes in the kitchen and says "who is that guy? he is ugly." and i say "be nice to your future son-in-law" and he looks at me weird and leaves the room.
hahahahah.

i'm babysitting for elmo toda at 12... my aunt has road runner.. fast connection on her computer >:D

tata... i must go prepare :D

werd?

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 Jul 2002 19:53:55 GMT

ahahahaha... yesterday my mother heard me and kim talking on the phone about us "hating church" and wrote me this long ass letter about how i need to ask god for guidance ahahaha.. good thing she didn't hear us talking about everything else or i would be soooo dead.
wooooo i am trying to type with all my fingers instead of just 2.. lmao. anywaaaays i sent kaytee and yellie my new pics today.. mwaha.. i hate them but like them..
then me and kim talked about our secret plan.. shhh... it's a secret ;D and ohhh... her net boyfriend, doom... forgot who she was.. ahahahahaha. oh and uhh and yeah.. and stuff?

OHHHHHHHHH.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Sat, 13 Jul 2002 16:16:49 GMT

oh oh oh and ooooh... KAYTEEEEEE... i got your hotel pen and sand... woooo! XD

when i am queen...

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Fri, 05 Jul 2002 15:32:16 GMT

--When I am queen, I'll have my way. I'll make it drowning dolly day, and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes. Drown, drown, drown myself. Drown, drown, drown myself. Drown, drown, drown myself. DROWN.-

leah's verse/s:
When I Am queen, I'll do as I please. I'll lock up hatred and hide the keys. And all the depression that has had it's way, will soon rot and slowly decay.
When I Am queen, sitting in my palace so grand, with floors made of ashes and colorless sand. I'll keep the sandy ashes apon the floor to remeber the tragedy behind another door.

merry.
belated..
july...
fourth....
mwaha.....

i went to my grandmother warner's yesterday... dudeeee... my uncle had this huge illegal fireworks from indianna... but my dad said it was ok since we were hick city. lmao. and i actually got to play with fire infront of adults.. mwaha. and i have to go babysit elmo today o.- so wish me luck beyooond luck.
<3-leah

OHHHH.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jul 2002 15:09:33 GMT

ohhhh and cartman[from southpark]'s birthday was yesterday... happy birthday cartman.. rawr ;)

oh and thanks for that information sarah :D

john's letter.. ROFLMAO.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jul 2002 14:59:07 GMT

well the wedding for them is off.. temperarily? i'm going to copy the letter/e-mail john sent kenny here:

Kenny,

As much as i love you, i'm sorry to do this to you. I trusted you, but you pissed it all away. I guess pigs will be pigs. And our relationship wasn't meant to last, it was just for now. If you told me we could have worked it out. But i can't turn back now. I was lost and you took me in, but my blackened eyes hold lies too, and i couldn't bare to let you know. My lips may promise but my heart is a whore.
I wish i could put the blame on you but that isn't true. It took you to make me realize and it smashed up my everything and all that was true. You were my everything, all that i had. But i was just part time. Just like Trent. I wasn't good enough for you i guess, eh?. Nothing can fix this broken machine, or what you did to me. I still love you, i guess i was a slave that was happy with their slavery. It's not that easy to forgive when it all turns to shit. I had you, you were everything. Being nieve i thought that was all i needed. I guess i was wrong about you, i wasn't all you wanted. If you want to know more why i left you...you better ask yourself, or are you going to hide what you should've told me again?.

-thinks-

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Jun 2002 00:41:59 GMT

uhhh today i went to kings island and rode Son of Beast, Frontwards Racers, Bumper Cars, Beast, Vortex, and Shake, Rattle, and Roll... all in 2 hours... gooo leah.. and her sister... go leah and sarah! buut i got sunburned a hell of a lot worse..
x pally is cruel to me -pouts-

uhhh -copies poem created by herself from her profile-

.no more gossip, no more lies. no more nights of silent cries. cries that soon turn to tears. tears that fade through the years. years that come and go quite quick. always making me feel sick. kill me now is my only thought; through the tears and screams that are distrought. through the years i shall go. dreaming, hoping, hating, oh. until my final thought is gone. and i have finally somehow moved on..

.and thought of death filled her with joy..

uhhh no one is on hardly.. freaky.. eh?
welll that's all for now... i think.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Jun 2002 00:00:34 GMT

i am alone.
i used to not be alone.
things change.
people are cruel.
i hate.

shoe laces

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Wed, 29 May 2002 00:54:30 GMT

THE FREAKING SHOE LACES CHRISTINA GOT US HAVE ARRIVED....

woooooooooooooooooooooo!

quizes... yippie skippie.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 28 May 2002 20:15:27 GMT

Test, test?

oh don't i feel special.. i kill myself... shocking isn't it?

which gwen are you?

yaaay my fave album by them...

amazing...

You are Thora
Birch!

You acted in cool movies like:
Ghost World, The Hole, Dungeons & Dragons,
Now and Then and American Beauty.

Take the "Which Hollywood Princess are you?"
quiz @ planetag.de

i guess that's good... actually... that is good.

all for now... too tired to do more...

damn i wasting so much journal space ;Xx

uhh.

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Tue, 21 May 2002 19:32:39 GMT

yesterday i did the basic things of school. blah blah blah... after school had horse back... kim feel off her horse! lmao. i hurt my bum on the sattle while we were cantering... and now i gotta bruise right above my butt! =O
oh and drew fell out of his chair in science. haha.
anyways today nothing happened... i fell asleep in music! heheh uhhh and i don't understand math.. i suck at it... and umm... tonite is the spring musical... oh jooooy! anyways i wanna record a im from my boy... err.. dogg:

doggz: i love it when ya call me big poppa;-)
bLuEPixieStix414: lolol
doggz: wassupp we woo!!!?
bLuEPixieStix414: nothing at alll
bLuEPixieStix414: yew/
doggz: nada long time no talk to my homie g dogg
bLuEPixieStix414: lol yep yep
bLuEPixieStix414: how have yew been?
doggz: greatttttttttttt
doggz: pimpin the garden tools
doggz: hell yea
bLuEPixieStix414: lmao
bLuEPixieStix414: thats... good i think
doggz: lol
doggz: its gotta be good its me
doggz: lol
bLuEPixieStix414: rofl
bLuEPixieStix414: only in your mind... it's good
doggz: im a legend in my own mind dont ruin my fanasty
doggz: lol
bLuEPixieStix414: lolol
doggz: whats new i yo high ho?
bLuEPixieStix414: umm nothing at all
bLuEPixieStix414: i gueess
bLuEPixieStix414: yeww?
doggz: o0o0o not good you gotta be pimpin the studz
bLuEPixieStix414: lmao
doggz: so wassupp with adrian my dogg?
bLuEPixieStix414: that's what i would like to know
doggz: where is my dogg?
bLuEPixieStix414: iunno
doggz: is he still with umm breeder?
bLuEPixieStix414: mhm
doggz: damn
bLuEPixieStix414: i thought steph had a gf though
bLuEPixieStix414: i can't remeber
doggz: well dont worry they wont have sex unless he gets adopted in her family
doggz: lolol
doggz: breederrrrrrrrrrrrrr
doggz: lol
bLuEPixieStix414: ROFL
doggz: ok i'll be nice
doggz: lol
bLuEPixieStix414: no no
bLuEPixieStix414: don't be nice ;]
doggz: lol
doggz: well my bestest bud im gonna go for a few i'll catch ya laterz stay cool=)
bLuEPixieStix414: ok byee doggz ;]

that's my dogg ;]

more later... or soon... or whenever.

wtf?

leah1sheltie@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 May 2002 19:47:36 GMT

wtf? i ammmmmm soooooooooo confused

just look:

>From: "M��???� ?" <adrixunx@hotmail.com>
>To: leah1sheltie@hotmail.com
>Date: Sun, 19 May 2002 16:10:11 +0000
>
>
>
>I blocked you because of kim, she still is trying to talk to me, i
>hate her, i hope she dies!!
>

? wtf? did i get blocked again? =O
iunno why adrian would -shrugs-

anyways i went to church today... and it was boring blah blah blah... the end... o.o